Well, tonight I was supposed to spend my first night away from Henry to attend the epic surprise party for my cousin Ashley. When I say epic, I am not exaggerating. There were DJ’s, food trucks, and costumes! My dad and I were going to go and got costumes. My dad was a pope and I got a nun costume. Then last night I started getting cold feet. And today, I just knew I wasn’t ready. I think it was mostly because I went back to work this week. Had it been last weekend, I think I could have done it. Maybe. Who knows?
I know I will be ready some time. It just wasn’t today. I felt terrible about it because I was really looking forward to it. But I knew I would feel terrible if I left. So, ultimately, I decided to stay home.

On to the high points….
It was trick or treat here in Springfield. It’s no secret that I struggled with infertility for years before I got pregnant with Henry. Every year at Trick or Treat time, I would love to look at the kids all dressed up in costumes, but at the same time, I would long for a child of my own to dress up in a costume. So, I knew early on that I wanted Henry to be Superman. I ordered the costume weeks and weeks ago. It looked so big at the time, but it fit him perfectly today.
I felt really lucky to have my own baby to dress up for Halloween, and I wish that for all others struggling with fertility issues. I dressed him up early in the day, and enjoyed every moment. Right up to his epic meltdown because mama kept him up too late.
So, my main high point was this:

Other high points:
*The kids at school were super welcoming when I came back.
*The school days went fast.
* I did well with meal planning, with help from my mom.
* Henry loved his week with his grandma, and he slept for 9 straight hours last night!
*I got morning cuddles with Henry today and will have them tomorrow, too!

I hope everybody is having a great weekend!

Xoxox,
Beth WA