Well, I’ve been very sad lately. The loss of my former student, Carly has been really difficult for me. Grieving is different than depression for me because I am not beating myself up mentally about it but rather beating myself up by stuffing my face with unhealthy shitty food that makes me feel even more shitty. I decided yesterday after a particularly effective staff retreat that I could be sad and grieve and still take care of myself and my body. In fact, I owe it to Carly to honor my body. So today, I went to my classes I love at the gym. And I felt like I was going to puke the whole time due to the crap I’ve been eating, but I trudged on. I remembered the words our retreat leader said yesterday – if you want to be a certain type of person, you need to act like that type of person until it becomes who you are on the inside. You should not wait for the feeling to come to you. I want to be a healthy person so I’m gonna take it til I make it!

Craig, henry and I are heading to the Columbus Zoo for their Boo at the Zoo. I’m looking forward to it!

Have a great weekend everybody.

Xoxoxox,

Beth WA