the2beths

Happy Wednesday! It was my first day of work this week, and that was pretty awesome. It wasn’t too hard to adjust because we get up early every day at my house.😏

I made an adjustment to my coffee this morning and it was better and less calories and fat, and I supplemented with yogurt and berries and a protein bar thoughout the day.

I did…

1 tsp coconut oil

1/2 tbsp Kerrygold butter

2 tbsp heavy cream

Sugar free vanilla syrup

1 stevia

1/2 scoop cookies and cream UMP protein powder 

I mix it all in the blender. 

It was delicious. And it sure woke me up. 

Okay- my friend Liz gave me this amazing recipe for an egg bake and I made it yesterday to have for lunch the rest of the week. And, let me tell you, it is life changing and full of veggies! 

You grease a pan and cut up a package of Grand’s biscuits and put them in the bottom of the pan.  

 
While you are doing that, you can sautee veggies. I sautéed them in Kerrygold because I love butter.  

 
I roasted a few sweet potatoes cut into small squares to add to onions, red pepper, spinach, and asparagus.  I should tell you that my friend Liz gave me this combination of veggies to try. 

Then you pour the veggies on top of the biscuits.

  
It’s beautiful, isn’t it? On top of that you add a mixture of 6 eggs and 1/4 cup milk.  Then add cheddar and goat cheese on top. I used 2 oz of Tillamook medium cheddar that I shredded myself and a container of Alloutte goat cheese crumbles. 

Then you bake it for 40 mins at 350 degrees. If you cut it into 6 GIANT pieces they are 470 calories each. That is what I did because it was my lunch.  

 
I can’t believe I didn’t take a picture after I baked it! Doh! 

Well, it is my tea and treat time and I bought my kryptonite. 

  
When I bought them I made sure to get the 200 calorie packs and told myself I ever go over my calories because of it or eat more than one bag in a day I have to get them out of the house. 

We shall see. 

I hope you had a good hump day! 
Xoxoxoz

Beth WA

I seriously couldn’t believe it when I stepped on the scale. But, I am happy and proud of myself. I didn’t meal plan very strictly this week but I have an idea of what I am going to eat and wrote down most of my meals. I have lots of Trader Joe’s leftovers to eat this week. 

Next week I will be back to it because I have so many recipes I want to try. I found a baked oatmeal recipe, a salad recipe, and an egg casserole that I want to make. So, next weekend I will work on incorporating those into the meal plan. 

I really want to lose 1.4 lbs this week to make it to 20 lbs. 

I was off school today for President’s Day and was feeling blah. I went with my mom to a 4:30 exercise class and it really adjusted my attitude. Funny how that happens. 
Here’s a picture of my bug from one of our snow days last week. I just love that boy to pieces. He’s the second biggest reason I am working so hard. I want to be the best and healthiest mommy I can be for Henry. The first biggest reason I want to get healthy is for me. 😉

Have a great night! 

Xoxox,

Beth WA

Sunday’s are great days, but even better when you have Monday off. It kind of made me put off meal prep/plan. I notice myself being more lax and losing focus. I am not having an evenings treat tonight. Mostly because I am out of calories, but also because I don’t need one every night. Also, I want to see if my night time snack is what is making me so lethargic in the mornings. I have the hardest time getting going lately, and that usually isn’t the case for me. 

I am going to try to make our meal plan mostly out of food we already have to help save some money. Since I have my coffee for breakfast I am thinking of making a baked oatmeal dish for lunch. I am not sure yet. I plan on working on it in the morning when Henry and I are chilling out. 

We didn’t do anything special for Valentine’s Day, which I kinda wish we did, but my husband is sick. Boo. 

Well, I am off to drink my tea and not eat a snack. Here’s a picture of my funny valentine and me.  

 
Oh, Beth FS and I took a hip hop class at our gym today and it was fun and hilarious. We both learned we don’t know how to body roll. Ha ha ha

Xoxoxo,

Beth WA

Ugh. I’ve been struggling to find energy. I am not sure what it is. I am thinking I might be eating too many carbs. I know I ate more carbs this week than I have been and maybe that’s it. Or, maybe I am just tired. But, I am going to keep at it. It has been rough keeping the momentum going.  I made the mistake of weighing myself this morning and have been bummed ever since.  I had planned on having Cold Stone tonight as a treat and planning my day around it but I ended up being too hungry and just ate normal all day. 

Tomorrow I am going to a hip hop class at the gym with Beth FS and I am excited and nervous. We’ve been wanting to take a hip hop class since we were in our twenties, so this should be fun and funny. I keep telling her we will be like Kid N Play in that movie House Party. Today I went with my mom to a Dancing to the Oldies class that was a really good aerobic workout. I was glad I went. 

Well, I just cleaned my kitchen and living room and sitting down drinking my tea having some dark chocolate with almonds in it. Yummmm. And I get to sleep in tomorrow. Yay! And I have Monday off. 

I have to do my meal planning and grocery shopping tomorrow. I am going to go to Aldi and try it out and then Kroger for the things I can’t find at Aldi. One thing I know for sure is I am making my sweet potato goat cheese quiche for my lunches. And I want to make some sort of mixed green salad with balsamic for the side. I really want to work on getting my veggies in this week. I am thinking of making a zucchini boat recipe one night, and stuffed peppers another night. 

Here are some selfies Henry and I took this morning when we were snuggling.  

    
 
And here is a picture of Henry being amazed at the big snow flakes the other night.  

Have a good Valentine’s Day! 

Xoxoxox,

Beth WA

I know I’ve talked about Binge Eating Disorder before, and I’ve never been diagnosed by a professional but I know I have it. If you’ve ever seen a checklist for it, I can check all the boxes. And as somebody with BED, I often would eat in private. I didn’t want people to know bow much I was actually eating. I was full of shame. I am trying to break free from this feeling by being responsible and balanced with my food. 

Today I was challenged. A parent brought in a box of goodies from a local bakery that included my favorite frosted sugar cookies. Before I started this current journey I would have grabbed one and went back to my room and eaten it in private with my lunch. And maybe even gone back for seconds. But, today, I went down with a Ziploc Baggie and put my beloved cookie in the bag and resolved to fit it in at some point but that it may not be today. And because of the way today went I happened to have enough extra calories to make that cookie my evening treat with my tea. So, instead of sneaking it, eating it and feeling guilty about it all day and then beating myself up, perhaps leading me to blow the whole day, I had it to look forward to all day.  I knew I was going to eat it and enjoy it, and not feel guilty about it at all. And, friends, that is eating with dignity, and that’s what I am about to do! 

Also, I got my 10,000 steps today! Woo hoo! 
Have a great evening. 

Xoxoxox,

Beth WA

I had my second snow day in a row today.  But it started out as a two hour delay called the night before. Well, Henry misunderstood and woke up at 4 am crying and then at 5:10 am for the day. 💤😴💤😴

I always say this, but he’s lucky he is so cute!!! I was tired and crabby most of the day and I felt bad. And I was on my phone too much. And so it was that my Lenten promise was born. I am going to keep my phone plugged into the charger in the kitchen until Henry goes to bed.  I am addicted to it and grab it for no reason incessantly. The only exception is logging my food. I need to do that.

Anyway, I was tired and crabby and feeling bad for Henry that he had to spend the day with me. I was really struggling with wanting to eat all day long! Henry was kind of crabby himself, and then my dad saved the day. He came and picked him up at 4:45 to go hang out and have dinner. And so I went to the gym early and did a few minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes of a Zumba class, and my regular 30 minute support group/class. And what an attitude adjustment that was. I feel so much better and now I am sitting on my couch drinking tea. No treat tonight. I had waffles for dinner, and a protein drink when I got home from the gym. I feel good and just tea is all I want and all I planned for. 

Here are a few selfies that Henry and I took today. 

I don’t know why the last one turned sideways??

Here are a few he took himself after I taught him to press the button. 

I have been craving ice cream like crazy so on Saturday night I have planned to have Cold Stone. I don’t want to have a pint at my house so my Valentine’s treat is going to be an Oreo ice cream. I already put it in myfitnesspal. I am doing body pump and a sweating to the oldies class on Saturday to help offset the 710 calories I am spending on ice cream. Mmmmm.
I am really proud of myself for surviving 2 snow days in a row with no bingeing and without going over my calories! Woo hoo! 

How is everybody else doing? Is being home all day a trigger for you? Or do you do better?

Have a good night, people!! Xoxoxo

Beth WA

Today was my 30th day in a row binge free. I have never kept track of this before but I can absolutely guarantee I’ve never made it more than two weeks. Ever. And we had a snow day today, which is a major trigger for me- when I am home all day! And, it’s Mardi Gras, and I actually picked up a box or Paczki and put them down at the grocery store. And then I stayed on plan all day. I had wanted to do body pump at home but I never got around to it and I am fine with that. My only commitment is Monday, Wednesday, and Friday and once on the weekend. If I work out more, that’s great, but I promised myself that I wouldn’t beat myself up over it. So, I am not. 

I actually took a two hour nap. When I put Henry down for a nap, I got a pounding headache. I decided to lay down and the next thing I knew it was two hours later. I must’ve really needed it. I am still hanging on to my cold so I think that probably helped. 

My bug was super cuddly today, which was nice.  

 
He sat in my arms like this for a long time, and repeatedly throughout the day. We had a busy morning, but a lazy rest of the day! 

Back to school tomorrow! 

I am off to enjoy my evening treat. Tonight it’s 1.75 oz of boom chicka boom kettle corn- or whatever that brand is and 30 grams of my chocolate covered almonds from Trader Joe’s. And, of course, my tea! 
  
I hope everybody had a great day!!! Did anybody else enjoy a snow day??
Xoxox

Beth WA

So, I had a better week than I thought! I was happy to see the 2.2 loss. It was a hard week. I really had to fight the urge to binge more than I did in the weeks prior. I am proud of myself because I have been making changes that are sustainable. At my weight loss group they really try to push cutting carbs and all sugars, etc. but, that is just not manageable for me or sustainable. I let protein lead me and I try to eat foods that make me feel good which usually are low carb, but when we decide to have burgers and onion rings from the place across the street I just plan it in.  Then, I eat with dignity. 

And I don’t beat myself up about it. Instead, I plan my day around it. And weirdly, I usually eat only half the bun, and a few of my onion rings and I feel satisfied. 

That has never. Ever. Ever happened. But lately, it has, and I love the feeling. 

I started a night time skin regime today. My sister in law sells Mary Kay so I bought the Time Wise line. I am terrible about taking care of my skin. But lately I’ve been looking old, and I know that washing my makeup off and moisturizing won’t hurt! I will keep you posted. 

Henry is feeling better, but now my mom is sick! Ugh! We can’t win with this sickness. 

Well, I am off to chill out and eat my evening treats. I get more than tea tonight because somehow I ended the day with a lot of extra calories! 

  
I never get this much and actually don’t like to make a habit of it. But tonight I treat myself! (And stay in calories.) (That is 3 Trader Joe’s dark chocolate peanut butter cups and a chocolate chip cookie dough quest bar and my sugar cookie tea, and my stylus to play the game I am addicted to!)
Xozoxo,

Beth WA

Ugh. I am struggling. As I mentioned my weigh in probably won’t be great, I had a busy day, didn’t exercise, went 100 calories over and have spent the last few hours beating myself up. I am behind at work because I was sick last week and I am planning a classroom Mardi Gras party for Tuesday, and I have a few doctor’s appointments for which I have to miss school. 

So, I asked my husband to put Henry to bed. I straightened up the living room. I got my pajamas on. I made my tea. 

Then I tried to get a grip. 

If this would’ve happened a month ago I would’ve just spent the evening eating everything in my house and skipped my weigh in tomorrow. I would’ve worked out 0 times this week and I would’ve been over my calories by more than 1000. I can’t be perfect. This journey is going to have its ups and downs and I have to be nicer to myself. 

So, I am going to enjoy my tea, play my computer solitaire game that I am addicted to, watch ID Discovery (not the Super Bowl 😜), and enjoy the moment. I am going to be proud of myself for my many non scale victories this week and hit the ground running tomorrow. 

Thanks for all of your support! 

Xoxoxo,

Beth WA

Ugh. Henry had his highest fever ever last night. We went to the doctor today and it’s just a virus. He is in good spirits but when you look at his face you can tell he is under the weather. 

And my sickness is holding on. I was up with Henry from 2:30-5:15. 😴 I feel crappy today. I am hoping some good sleep tonight will help. 

For my lunches this week I got Trader Joe’s Reduced Guilt chicken salad to have sandwiches, and my Fage total with berries. Yummm. 

I made a dinner meal plan for the week using recipes from the Trader Joe’s website. Tonight we are having Sriracha wings. Craig is making them right now. 

I am not too hopeful for tomorrow’s weigh in. I am hoping to stay the same or lose a teensy bit. I stayed on plan eating wise but because of mine and Henry’s sickness I only worked out twice this week! And I don’t feel any lighter if that makes sense. And I have been sooo thirsty all week! I have had lots of water but just can’t keep up.  It must be the medicine I’ve been taking. 

I am ready to get back on my exercise schedule tomorrow. I missed it this week.  I am hoping to be better by next weekend for my three day weekend. Woot woot! 

I hope everybody had a great weekend.  Anybody doing anything fun for the Super Bowl? I am not. Lol. And I am okay with it. I need sleep. Or did I already mention that? 

Here’s my sick sleeping bug last night.  

 
He loves his pillow. 

Lent starts on Wednesday and I think I am going to give up online shopping or limit it to a certain number of purchases. (Except for my Amazon subscribe and save.). I have to think about it. Any Catholics out there giving anything up for Lent?
Xoxoxo,

Beth WA