Thisdaywasatwarpspeedwithnobreaks.

This is how my day started out:

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It was an event I could not re-create even if I tried. I opened a cabinet, something fell out, and it hit a wine glass that was on the counter. The wine glass shattered and went flying at the same time, and when I put my hand up to block my face, the glass had bounced up and hit my hand. I started bleeding right away and a LOT, and it looked like a murder scene.
The first thing I did was text my boss to tell her I would be late.
Then, I cleaned up the murder scene, looking for somebody to blame it on so that I could be mad at that person. Don’t worry, I was able to blame my husband. He’s so lucky.

I hate being late to work, because then I can not get situated before the kids come in the classroom. And then I feel like a hamster running on a wheel all day. Especially, today, since I have no planning periods on Wednesdays, and today I had no lunch due to working with kids who didn’t have their work done. I was so glad when 3:20 finally arrived, and the kids were all gone. Sigh.

And when I got home, I was so happy to remember I had a meal plan, so I didn’t have to come up with something to eat. I just looked at my plan.
Yay for meal plans.

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This morning I had my first weigh in with Fitness Pal. I lost 1 lb, but really it was more. I did my first weigh in the day after my miscarriage, and after the miscarriage I gained 3-4 lbs in a week. I didn’t start tracking until last week, but I never updated my weight. So, while I don’t know what the exact weight loss was, it was between 3-6 lbs, and that makes this girl very happy.

I love the app, Fitness Pal. I am able to have camaraderie with friends who struggle just like I do, and it makes the process less lonely. If you are not familiar with Fitness Pal, it’s a free app, (or website) that you track your calories after setting a goal for yourself. You also track your fitness. You have a newsfeed like on Facebook, and you can comment on each other’s stuff, like your successes and struggles. You can make statuses like on Facebook, too. However, you can keep your weight private, and whatever else you want to keep private.
Believe me, that is the first thing I checked. I know that your weight is only a “number,” and it doesn’t identify me as a person. But, personally, it’s a number I am not comfortable sharing.
I love it because you can scan food with your iPhone instead of typing it in when you are logging your food. That’s what I most often do. And, there are SO many foods in the database. I love that part, too.
Tracking food takes time, and is a tad tedious, but Fitness Pal makes it very user friendly, and slightly less tedious.

Well, I have to grade 60 math tests. But first, I am going to check up on google reader to have a little down time.

What do you like to do in your downtime to relax?

oxoxox,
Beth WA

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Terrible sleep cycle.

Every week it is the same thing. Friday night I am so exhausted I go to bed right before ten and get up early on Saturday. Then, I go to bed late Saturday and sleep in Sunday.
Then I can’t sleep Sunday night, so I am exhausted on Monday. I take a nap after school on Monday, then I can’t sleep at night. This continues Tuesday through Thursday until I start the process again.
Until today.
I surged through nap time, and went on a walk, instead.
(If you are keeping track, I have done 2 things on my monthly goals. Meal plans. Work out.)
Now, it is 7:50 and I am laying in bed barely awake typing this post.

Being exhausted does not look good on me.

Tomorrow morning is my first weigh in since starting Fitness Pal app. (More on that later.). I am nervous, but hoping there is a loss!

Well, goodnight my friends, and mom.

Xxo,
Beth WA

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Roasted. Delicious.

I seriously love roasted vegetables. They are so easy, and take a meal from meh- to really delicious and satisfying.
I *especially* love roasted cauliflower and yams or sweet potatoes. So, tonight for dinner, I made a turkey breast, and some roasted cauliflower and yams, and a few yukon golds we had leftover.
On the cauliflower I put salt, pepper, olive oil and dill.
On the yams, chili powder, cumin, paprika, salt, pepper, and olive oil.
On the yukon golds, salt, pepper, olive oil, and a little bit of garlic salt.

I roasted them at 400 degrees for about 35 minutes. Near the end of the time, the last 7 or so minutes, I kept decreasing the temperature by about 5 degrees every two or so minutes.

I had to bake the turkey breast in the toaster oven because it only cooks at 325 degrees. (Thanks mom and dad for the toaster oven!)

Here is a picture of my delicious dinner…

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I have so much grading that I could do tonight, but I am on the fence as to whether I will actually do it. Hmmph.

Random stories from today:
*I burnt the roof of my mouth last night at dinner, so today, every thing I eat is excruciatingly painful.
*This morning I picked up my heated up curling iron by the barrel end.
*I finally called my insurance company back after they called me three times last week to enroll in a free program for women, but when I called I realized it was for pregnant women. Womp. Womp. Womp. I had to tell him I had a miscarriage. I was actually ok, but I felt really bad for the man I talked to on the phone. He was really sympathetic, and kind. He assured me that they wouldn’t call me back about that. And actually, directed me toward prenatal program that I could enroll in that was also free. As I am still in a place of hope, this was a small trip up in the course of my day. However, if it had been 6 months down the line and we are still not pregnant, it might have been a major setback. But, it wasn’t. And I am ok. I am hopeful.
*I took a nap after school. I need to stop doing that.
*I feel organized this week. This is good. I made a meal plan!!! YAY!!!!

Well, that’s all I got. I am off to read blogs in my google reader, and catch up on gossip and healthy people running and eating pumpkin.

Smooches,
Beth WA

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This girl has got goals. And a snoring husband.

I slept so well last night. Well…let me back up a bit. My mom’s birthday was yesterday, so we decided to all come to my house and order food in from the restaurant across the street, and play a little Apples to Apples with my niece, while watching the Ohio State game, laughing, having a few cocktails, and just relaxing. It was such a nice night.
My husband is a beer lover (and beer maker), which I am sure I have mentioned before. He used to enjoy beers several different times during the week, but a month or so ago, decided to start eating healthier to lose a few l-b’s. So, now he only drinks beers on Saturdays. So, that means he drinks lots of beers on Saturdays. The amount of beer he drinks is directly proportional to the loudness of his snoring. So, after being awoken a few times by it, I went into our guest bedroom upstairs. And I slept so well. It was lovely.

Well, I slept so well, I decided to set some goals.

I am going to copy off of my best friend, Liz, at her blog and do monthly goals. After I read her update today, I thought it was a great idea as I try to pull myself together.

So, here are my goals for October:

1. Work out at least 2 times a week for at least 45 minutes.

I have been tracking calories for almost a week now, and I feel like I am ready to start exercising, again. My goal is not that big, but I want it to be attainable.

2. Make a dinner meal plan for Monday-Friday.

I spend way too much money at the grocery store. I want to start focusing on a meal plan, and the food that I already have in my house to stick to my grocery budget more. I think that if I went to the meal plan, I would do much better. I know I did this several months ago, and it truly did make a difference. It also took away a minor, but real stress that I have each day deciding what to make for dinner.

3. Work on chores with husband for 20 minutes Monday-Thursday after dinner.

I had this idea to incorporate my husband into the chore process. I thought that we could make a list of the chores that have to be done around the house pretty regularly, and then after dinner, set a timer for 20 minutes and work on the chores. Things I was thinking are: putting away clean laundry, cleaning bathrooms, dishes, vacuuming, dusting, and other things that may even be more deep cleaning. I think if we did this, the chores would feel a lot less daunting.

4. Try at least 2 new recipes this month from my gigantic recipe binder that I made earlier this year. It is an organized binder of all of recipes I’ve saved or cut out of magazines. Then, blog about the recipes.

Okay…let’s hope I can stick to these goals.
I am heading over to my parents in a little bit to watch the Brown’s. My family is from Cleveland, so we are Brown’s fans, Indian’s fans, and Cav’s fans.
Everybody has their cross to bear, I suppose.
ha ha ha.

I hope everybody enjoys their Sunday.
Beth WA

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Baking soda ain’t no joke. And my mom is the best of all the rest.

It’s 9 AM on a Saturday, my kitchen is clean, dishwasher unloaded and loaded, laundry is all in the basement ready to be started, I cleaned my microwave!!, and I am about to start filing months and months of paperwork that is loaded up in crates and rubbermaid tubs in my guest room.
All of this means one thing.
I am in a good place.
I am in a place of hope.
I am in a place of control over food (biggest indicator of my well being).
I feel happy.

The main indicator was the microwave. My husband and I are not good housekeepers. I mean, we are not buried alive like on Hoarders…we keep our main living area clean and ready for guests. But, our bedroom has clothes every where, our guest rooms are riddled with piles and piles of papers, books, and random stuff. Dishes sometimes sit in our sink for more than one day, and pans even longer (my husband does not clean pans.) Our bathrooms are cleaned way too rarely. And our microwave…our poor microwave.
The other day I was looking at it and thought to myself…man, I wish my mom would come over and clean my microwave. (because, that is the kind of thing she would do….more on that later.)
So, today, I bit the bullet. I was too embarrassed to take a before picture…but here is the after picture.

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First, I was just washing with a hot rag, then I remembered reading on a blog or in a magazine somewhere about adding baking soda to the water. I did that, and it came clean with hardly the effort I was putting forth to start with.
I am so happy with the result. And maybe now, I won’t put it off so long.

Baking soda ain’t no joke. It works!!!

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One other thing that I’ve been eating lately that I had never seen at the grocery store are these coated nuts…
They are SOOO good. And it only takes a few to make a filling snack.

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And I wanted to mention that today is the birthday of my #1 blog fan. My mom.
My mom has been amazing throughout my whole pregnancy and miscarriage, and pretty much my whole life. I know that she suffered the loss just as much as I did, but she was strong for me, because that is what I needed. That’s pretty much indicative of the kind of mom she is. She is the mom who would do anything for my brother or me. I know sometimes it makes it hard on her as an individual…sometimes feeling under appreciated, and taken advantage of…but it does not stop her from being the best mom in the world. Her love is so big it is tangible.

Thanks, mom, for all that you do. I appreciate you every day, even if I don’t say it, and I hope that your birthday is a great day…I am guessing it will be because you get to spend it with me. HA HA HA. Just kidding,

Well, I am off to do this filing…

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Don’t be jealous!!

Then Chuck E. Cheese for my niece’s birthday, then out to dinner for my mama’s birthday…

What are you all up to this weekend?

-Beth WA

Update: Weird. When I published this two paragraphs disappeared. The 2 paragraphs to explain the pictures of the English muffin and Sunbutter. And it will NOT let me insert it between the pictures. I keep trying. Anyway.
I know pumpkin is pretty cliche in the blog world in October but I had to try these pumpkin spice English muffins. And I did not regret it. They are delicious. Especially topped with my favorite…Sunbutter! Yummmmmmm

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It’s Shake and Bake, and I helped.

Well, actually, I made it all. I finally found all natural, organic chicken at our grocery store. It’s ironic that I turned it into Shake and Bake, which is not all natural. Oh, well.
It was delicious served aside roasted yams and potatoes, and the Steamfresh veggie combination of- corn with asparagus and carrots.

This conversation actually happened while I was cooking dinner.

Husband: You didn’t tell me I looked nice today.
Me: I didn’t? Well you d..wait, you didn’t tell me I looked nice.
Husband: Because you don’t.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH
Truth be told, I am wearing an oversized ratty old T-shirt and these knicker type pajama pants with elastic mid calf, and the top of my hair is in a knot on my head. So, that’s why I laughed and didn’t kick him in the teeth.

I’ve had a good week this week. I’ve graded thousands of papers, but it’s been nice to see the kids do well and work hard.
And every morning I’ve made the most delicious pumpkin smoothie. Coconut milk, spinach, pumpkin, weight watchers french vanilla smoothie mix, Fage 2%, cinnamon, vanilla, and pumpkin pie spice. YUMMMMMY.

Well, I didn’t really have a lot to say, or any pictures to share, but I wanted to check in…

Peace out-
Beth WA

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Flowers.

It’s never ideal when a family suffers hardships. This past month was filled with challenging times for me and my family. But through those challenging times I learned, yet again, the strength of my family. I also learned the depth of my friendships.
First, my dad was having some cardiac issues. He went to his doctor who referred him to his cardiologist. He was ordered in for an angioplasty the following day which revealed that he had 3 blockages that required 3 stents to be put in to open the blockages. He was only in the hospital for one night but it was still a scary ordeal.
Meanwhile, a few weeks before this, after a few years of trying, my husband and I found out we were expecting. We were thrilled, but at the same time I was terrified because right from the beginning I was having complications. Each day I would start out so positive and then by the end of the day I would be crying myself to sleep. I had ultrasound and doctors appointments and some were hopeful.
Some weren’t.
Until the week after my dads health scare, things got really bad and I had a miscarriage.
It was devastating. Yet, at the same time, the depletion of my anxiety was somewhat of a relief. I mean, of course I wasn’t relieved to lose our baby. It was just the anxiety that had set in that was taking over my life. I was paralyzed. I didn’t cook dinner. I stopped making plans with friends. I was always in a daze of being terrified. I couldn’t sleep yet I never wanted to leave my bed.
As I look back on that time, and the time right after my miscarriage it saddens me. But at the same time it gives me hope.
The next time I hope I will have a pregnancy that is exciting and not terrifying. One that will end with me being a mom.
And as one of my dear friends reminded me, we had created a soul that will live for all eternity and will greet me in heaven when the time comes.

And while hardships on a family are not ideal, the residual flowers help keep the hope and love alive.

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Love to you all.
Beth WA

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Thank you, oatmeal. Thank you, Amanda Bynes.

I am struggling through a difficult time right now. It is something I will write about when I am ready, but in the mean time, I am thankful for distractions.

One of which is Amanda Bynes. Seriously. What the heck is happening with her? I have to think it is a mental illness more than a substance abuse issue. Or maybe a combination of both. I mean, I feel bad for her…but since the story is still kind of new, I am enjoying a few of the random things she is doing. Like this one in spinning class.

The other is my morning oatmeal. I haven’t had it in a while, and it was nice to have it this morning. My husband has eggs every morning. I think in the seven years we’ve been together, I can count on both hands how many times he has had a breakfast that does not include eggs. So, imagine my surprise this morning when I was going to make oatmeal, and he said he wanted some, too. He enjoyed it. I waited until he was 2/3 of the way through to tell him there were chia and flax seed in the oatmeal. Muhahahahahah! I made this oatmeal. It’s Kath’s whipped banana oatmeal. Best oatmeal ever, especially if you are sensitive to the texture of oatmeal, which I am sometimes, even though I love it. Weird, I know. It’s important to follow her method exactly to get the fluffiness.

The other distraction that I couldn’t live without is a list of shows that I could watch on a 24 hour loop. Shows like…
Criminal Minds
Dateline
48 hours on ID
I (Almost) Got Away with It
Jail
Women Behind Bars
Police Women of ________ County
Unusual Suspects
Who the (Bleep) Did I Marry
Snapped

There are a few others…but you get the idea. I just love them, and I don’t know why. I find the narrator’s voice soothing and comforting to have in the background of my life.

Well, I am off to watch the end of this Dateline on ID.

I hope you all have a great Friday.
Beth WA

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Every Day is a Gift

This is something I often forget.
Every day is a gift.
Every breath is a gift.

I guess when life is hurling curve balls from many directions, it is hard to remember this.
But, somewhere, in the middle of my day, it was pointed out to me by a friend’s blog. And then, the gray cloud that has been following me around, the sun began to shine…in my mind.
Because, ironically, it was the exact time of the day today that it started to rain where I live. Ha ha.

That’s why I haven’t blogged lately. I’ve been kind of a grump.
And I didn’t want to spread my grump-i-tude.

So, instead, I am going to write some things that i am thankful for this week-

My kids at school. They are so good this year. They are such a source of joy each day.

My tutor, Julie, that is in my room every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Not only does she help my workload, she makes me smile every day.

Friends. I love getting texts from friends. Especially ones that make me laugh. I love my daily phone calls with my BFF, Liz.

And of course, my amazing family. I have the best parents. To call my mom and dad supportive is the biggest understatement of the year.

Oh, and one more thing. If you like Peppermint Patties….these are awesome.

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Well, I hope you all had a great Monday.
Xoxox,
Beth WA

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In spite of myself

Well, I went to the step aerobics class I had scheduled for myself today, IN SPITE OF MYSELF. Seriously, this is what I do…
I wake up in the morning, give myself a pep talk about how good I will feel in the mornings with this new work out schedule. By lunch time, I am thinking, maybe I will start the exercise program tomorrow, and by the time I get home after school (*even though I left in time to come home do a few things and THEN go*), I have talked myself out of going and into a nap instead.
This is a terrible idea. A nap means not sleeping that night. AND it means I didn’t do what I said I was going to do, therefore letting myself down. Yet, again.
So, I went so far as to lay down in my bed, and finally forced myself out at 4:20, and made it to class, albeit 10 minutes late. I was thinking to myself what an ass I am being 10 minutes late to class because of myself.
But, since 37 is the year of being nice to myself, I forgave myself for the temporary lapse, and I left step aerobics very happy with myself…

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…and very sweaty.
In my rush to leave, I was also really happy I remembered my mat for the floor/ab work. Well, I didn’t really remember it…it was in my car.

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I love this class because they turn the lights off for the floor work. And, as somebody who is extremely self conscious of their body, and its limitations, I was loving this idea.

Tonight for dinner we are having spaghetti. Between school and aerobics, I put turkey meatballs and a jar of Barilla Toscano sauce with my additions of seasonings…such as salt, pepper, fresh garlic, oregano, and my favorite….

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I LOVE Hot and Sweet!!!
I also add a bit of sugar, but don’t tell my husband.

Instead of pasta we are having spaghetti squash, and I am roasting zucchini with the same seasonings (minus sugar) to put on top of the spaghetti.

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My mouth is watering…gotta go prep the spaghetti squash.

What’s everybody else having for dinner????

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